I am trapped.
Walls closing in, suffocating. Air thinning.
Lights dimming.
I am trapped.
Entangled in my sheets, struggling. Still fighting.
Done writing.
I am trapped.
Car filling with water, drowning. Keep pushing.
Keep shushing.
I am trapped.
Cornered by my fears, pacing. No playing.
Not saying.
I am trapped.
Fight or flight, spinning. Faces shifting.
Fog lifting.
I am trapped. I love you, but you're trapping me.
Letting Go. Moving On. by IncognitoMonophobic, literature
Literature
Letting Go. Moving On.
The sun taps on my window. It's begging to be let in. I feel perhaps I should smash a hole in my wall to let more of it shine through.
It makes me feel all right, you see.
It makes me feel like maybe I can get through this.
Yes, it will always hurt.
But no. No, I do not need you. And I will not let memories of you control my life.
I look at the sun filtering through the screen and I think, It's okay, you're all right now. You're safe.
From Here, To You. by IncognitoMonophobic, literature
Literature
From Here, To You.
Can you see me waving slowly?
Can you see me from way up there?
Do you have a nice clear view?
Or is there too much smog in the air...?
I wish you were still down here.
I miss your big warm hugs.
The ones that enveloped my senses,
The safest kind of drug.
When I'm grown up will you see me then?
When I'm stubborn and 25?
Will you shake your head and laugh,
Thinking how easy it is to be alive.
I wish I had someone to throw a football with,
To be protective and stout.
To talk to me when I'm being headstrong
Or put me in timeout.
Someone to walk me down the aisle,
To look back at and see cry,
But I'll walk myself down the aisle.
If You're Out There. by IncognitoMonophobic, literature
Literature
If You're Out There.
You'll be my piece of cloudless sky,
You'll hold me when I start to cry.
Help me through the roughest times,
Help me keep my head up high.
You'll brush my hair out of my face,
And kiss me with the utmost grace.
Sleep beside me through the night,
Calm me when we start to fight.
Your picture knitted to my heart,
I'll hold it near when we're apart.
You'll accept me for who I am,
You'll take what I can give.
You'll hold my hand when I need the strength
To find a better reason to live.
I'll sing you soft words and touch your skin
While you erase who I was and where I've been.
I'm not sure if I've ever met you before,
But I know yo
I am trapped.
Walls closing in, suffocating. Air thinning.
Lights dimming.
I am trapped.
Entangled in my sheets, struggling. Still fighting.
Done writing.
I am trapped.
Car filling with water, drowning. Keep pushing.
Keep shushing.
I am trapped.
Cornered by my fears, pacing. No playing.
Not saying.
I am trapped.
Fight or flight, spinning. Faces shifting.
Fog lifting.
I am trapped. I love you, but you're trapping me.
Letting Go. Moving On. by IncognitoMonophobic, literature
Literature
Letting Go. Moving On.
The sun taps on my window. It's begging to be let in. I feel perhaps I should smash a hole in my wall to let more of it shine through.
It makes me feel all right, you see.
It makes me feel like maybe I can get through this.
Yes, it will always hurt.
But no. No, I do not need you. And I will not let memories of you control my life.
I look at the sun filtering through the screen and I think, It's okay, you're all right now. You're safe.
From Here, To You. by IncognitoMonophobic, literature
Literature
From Here, To You.
Can you see me waving slowly?
Can you see me from way up there?
Do you have a nice clear view?
Or is there too much smog in the air...?
I wish you were still down here.
I miss your big warm hugs.
The ones that enveloped my senses,
The safest kind of drug.
When I'm grown up will you see me then?
When I'm stubborn and 25?
Will you shake your head and laugh,
Thinking how easy it is to be alive.
I wish I had someone to throw a football with,
To be protective and stout.
To talk to me when I'm being headstrong
Or put me in timeout.
Someone to walk me down the aisle,
To look back at and see cry,
But I'll walk myself down the aisle.
If You're Out There. by IncognitoMonophobic, literature
Literature
If You're Out There.
You'll be my piece of cloudless sky,
You'll hold me when I start to cry.
Help me through the roughest times,
Help me keep my head up high.
You'll brush my hair out of my face,
And kiss me with the utmost grace.
Sleep beside me through the night,
Calm me when we start to fight.
Your picture knitted to my heart,
I'll hold it near when we're apart.
You'll accept me for who I am,
You'll take what I can give.
You'll hold my hand when I need the strength
To find a better reason to live.
I'll sing you soft words and touch your skin
While you erase who I was and where I've been.
I'm not sure if I've ever met you before,
But I know yo
Home seems so far away,
Earth seems to rot apart.
Ashes turn everything gray,
Valleys seem to even more part.
Eagles don't fly any more,
Night grows even darker.
I fall to my knees on the floor,
Start to cry like a bleeding marker.
Hope seems to be all lost,
Eden is nothing but a wish.
Lives pay a deadly cost,
Let's not let it be like this.
I'm Maria. I waste the majority of my time here. Let's talk? :]
Favourite genre of music: Everything, really. MP3 player of choice: iPod Favourite cartoon character: Courage the Cowardly Dog Personal Quote: "My glasses! I've lost my glasses!"
I got a Tumblr, if anyone's interested?
http://takealettermaria.tumblr.com/
Not doing much with it yet, but we'll get there.
Having a baby boy any day now. Sitting around waiting gives one lots of time to do this kind of stuff.
:]
I have returned from the beach :]
Most of my time was spent at the Chesapeake Bay though. We only went to the actualy ocean once and I forgot my camera. Oh well. I got two decent shots, though the bay shore is rather unphotogenic.
:/